Friday, June 29, 2012


Hi friends. I know I haven't been blogging a lot again, not because I haven't had blog posts in my head, just no time to get them out.

Life has been so busy. Summer always is, but this summer seems even busier. Here's a little recap of the past few weeks:

June 9th: Our monthly LIFE Seminar in St. Louis
June 10th: Not sure, but I think we were at the river.
June 15th: Took off work and spent the afternoon/evening with my Dad for Father's Day
June 16th: Alysia and Ben's wedding. This is also when I fell and sprained both my ankles, one of them severely.
June 17th: Father's Day, had lunch at Ross' grandparents and then spent the afternoon at Dry Creek swimming.
June 18th-22nd: Girls had swimming lessons at the pool every morning from 10-12
June 23rd: 40th Anniversary Party for Ronnie and Tena Slovensky
June 24th: Swimming at Tiger Shark Water Park with my sister and her kids

While life is certainly busy, I'm loving every minute of the summer fun we are having! And as a bonus, I'm rocking one of the best tans I've ever had!

Yesterday was Ross' birthday. We are going out with our friends, Amy and Chris, to celebrate tomorrow. Amy's birthday was the 26th, Ross' the 28th and Chris' is July 1st.

Today, my brother, Matt and his wife Sera Kate welcomed their first baby, a healthy boy, still unnamed at this point. I am thrilled for them, but it's also a reminder that I'm no longer pregnant and expecting my own baby boy. I can't wait to see him and hold him, he looks so sweet! I just hope I can keep it together and not cry until later. I wouldn't want to make anyone feel bad.

I do try and find positive things about what happened to our baby, although positive doesn't sound quite right, I'm not sure how to put it though. It has been extremely hot this past week and will continue to be for at least another week. My work is not air conditioned, so in a way, I'm glad I'm not trying to work in this unbearable heat while being 6 months pregnant. Ross and I are starting the hCG diet tomorrow and are going to lose a bunch of weight, I wouldn't be doing that if I was still pregnant. I will get to be on the beach and not be 8 months pregnant. Instead, I'll hopefully be at least 40 pounds lighter than I am now. I'm just trying to find a plus side to what happened so I don't focus on all the negative and sadness of it.

I have David's birth story in my head and will be putting it down here as soon as I have an hour or so free to get it all out. I don't want to forget any details, and since both the girls have their birth stories well documented on my blog, I felt David deserves the same.

I haven't cried in quite awhile, but I try and not focus on the things that will make me cry, I still feel sadness, but not as overwhelming as it was in the beginning. The girls still mention him, and I'm thankful they are not just putting it aside and forgetting that they have a brother in heaven.

That's it for now, I'll try and get some new pictures of the kids and our life up soon.

Monday, June 11, 2012

Van Shopping

We have decided to start our search for a minivan. The used car lot in town has lots of nice vehicles come through, but not many minivans. We saw one on Friday morning and pulled in to check it out. Ross' Uncle Jerry sells cars there and was telling us what he knew about it. I test drove it today and we are keeping it overnight so Ross can drive it tomorrow.

It's a 2005 Dodge Grand Caravan, with 98,000 miles. It's in excellent condition, inside and out. It drives nice and has a good price too.

We had originally thought we would shop for a Honda Odyssey, and I still really like them, but not sure if we want that much debt right now.

Here's a picture of it:

Monday, June 4, 2012

Happy Anniversary To Us

It was 7 years ago today that Ross and I said our vows and started our married life together. It's been 11½ years since we started dating. I love him more now than I ever have before and I have a feeling that will only continue to grow over time. I'm pretty sure that's the way marriage is supposed to be!

We got a babysitter last night and went out on a date! We started at Lowe's, Ross had a return to make and I browsed paint colors for the living room. (It desperately needs an update, the color scheme we chose a few years ago was a bad choice for long term.) Next stop was dinner at Colton's. We ordered some fried pickles for an appetizer and both got the 6 oz. sirloin with smashed potatoes and a dinner salad. It was yummy all the way around.

We had a little time to kill before our movie was starting so we stopped by Kohl's and I got a few more new shirts and Ross got some shorts. I also got an idea of something to get him for Father's Day/Birthday. We went to the theater and saw The Avengers. Awesome movie! We now need to play catch up and watch Captain America and Thor, we've already seen both the Iron Man movies and Ross has seen the latest Hulk movie as well. We stopped at Sonic for ice cream on the way home to complete our date. It was really nice to get to spend all that time with Ross all to myself and not sharing him with two other girls ;) He even opened my car door for me all evening. He always did that until we had the girls and we each have a girl to get in and get buckled, I felt quite spoiled by his gentlemanly ways!

It's just such a comforting feeling to know that you have someone that loves you as much you do him. And to know that I don't have to ever be alone, he'll always be there for me. I couldn't imagine my life without him. And yes, we have our squabbles and know how to push each others buttons, I don't know any couple that doesn't from time to time. But, we have a special connection that no one outside of a marriage really gets, it's very precious.

Here are a few of our wedding pictures:

Friday, June 1, 2012

Back to Work

After being on lay off for 8 weeks, I returned to work on Wednesday. I was dreading it, but at the same time, ready to get it over with. The first night went pretty well. A few people offered condolences and a lot of people welcomed me back. A few people asked if I had a good time on my "vacation" and I had to tell them about what happened, they didn't even know that I was pregnant. After telling a few people, I decided to just let it go. I had announced that I was expecting the last week I worked before I took layoff, so in a way, I'm not surprised that some didn't even know I was pregnant. I wasn't showing that much yet and I hadn't started wearing maternity clothes.

The second night was a little tougher. I was in the restroom and someone asked me, "so when's that baby due?" I kept it together long enough to tell what happened, but when I got back on my forklift out on the floor, the tears came. I don't think the ache inside is ever going to totally go away. And then, my previous manager stopped me and told me how sorry he was and that made me cry even more. It was a rough night. I was missing Ross, I've been spoiled by seeing him every night when he gets home from work and now, he's in bed by the time I get home.

It's been a rough couple days with the girls too. I'm sure they are adjusting to our new routine in their own way, but their behavior has been horrible and I feel like all I'm doing is disciplining them, or rather losing my temper because I'm still a tad bit irritable. Plus, the girls are still battling allergy issues.

I started with some kind of sinus/head cold thing on Sunday night and I am still miserable. I called in sick on Tuesday night because I was so sick I never got off the couch. I'm ready to get tonight over with so I can rest this weekend and hopefully get better.

To top it all off, our babysitter quit on us. I Facebook messaged her and texted her husband on Monday evening around 8:30 to find out what time they would be there on Tuesday. (The babysitters husband and I carpool together, so they just come to the house and we leave from here.) She called me at 9pm and let me know that she was no longer going to babysit. A week ago everything was fine. Ross and I were both upset and it set us on a course of talking about our different options. That will have to be another blog post though, it's time to start getting ready for work now.