I just want to express my thanks to all of my blog friends who commented on this post. I really needed the encouragement and the knowledge that I'm not alone in my feelings. Also thanks to my family and friends for the phone calls, emails, and Facebook messages.
It's very comforting to know that I have people who are lifting me up in prayer as I deal with my current struggles and I truly appreciate the support. More to come about my other struggles. I've found that being honest on my blog and sharing so openly about my failures and disappointments is helping me to face my challenges instead of hiding them from myself. Not a fun process, but a necessary one to make me a better Christian, wife and mother.